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Here and then, there and now| | Type: Story
Genre: Romance, realistic
Description: based on the real story of my friend, He wrote it I edited it.
Here and then, there and now
By: Andy
Edited by: Yuishi
First chapter: Door to begginings
It was late at night and I was talking to my friend Manny in MSN messenger, that day is the day I think I regret or am very fond of:
Manny: Yo Jay.
Jay: Sup?
Manny: I want you to meet someone.
Jay: Huh?
(Carol added to the conversation)
Manny: Hey Carol.
Jay: who is Carol?
Manny: friend of mine.
Jay: oh ok. Hey!
Carol: hi.
Jay: how are you?
Carol: good, so, you and manny here are in the same class?
Manny: yeah and we fool around all the time don’t we Jay?
Carol: oh god…
Manny: ill leave you two lovebirds alone
(manny left the conversation)
Jay: so… how old are you?
Carol: 16 years old
Jay: hey same here.
Carol: So what high school do you attend?
Jay: heart and cross school
Carol: oh how nice. I attend Saint Jacob’s
Jay: nice, nice.
A few days passed and I still had no interest whatsoever towards her… Even so… our minds would still wonder when one or the other would log on, it was love nor good friendship it was… casual stranger conversation.
Carol: hi again.
Jay: hey, what’s up?
Carol: nothing much. I’m just studying for the final exams.
Jay: oh I get excused off some.
Carol: how nice.
Jay: do you get excused off some?
Carol: just one…
Jay: I think me too, I got to go talk another day ok? Bye
Carol: bye.
A few weeks passed and I still wasn’t interested in her… actually I forgot about her with all the things in my mind. There was no time to think of her when I had so much to do, after all its not like a REALLY knew her or anything.
Jay: hey.
Carol: hey
Jay: Who are you?
Carol: don’t you remember me?
Jay: no…
Carol: Manny’s friend?
Jay: OH ok now I remember. Carol right?
Carol: yeah, so what’s up with you?
Jay: not much it’s my dad’s birthday
Carol: oh how nice, wish him a happy birthday from my part.
Jay: will do. Hey u want me to call you sometime?
Carol: sure id love to. Because Carol gave me her number I called her the next day:
Jay: Good afternoon is Carol there?
Carol: who is it?
Jay: its Jay.
Carol: Oh Jay its Carol how are you?
Jay: I’m fine how about you?
Carol: I’m ok I guess
Jay: you cant assume that you feel well. You got to say yes or no.
Carol: yeah.
Jay: so what type of music do u like?
Carol: rock, punk everything rock I guess exept death metal.
Jay: hey me too!
Carol: we have something in common then.
We kept talking every single day about absolutely everything, hours and hours just talking about absolutely nothing, yet everything. (I beginning to have some interest in her while we talked as if I had found a part of me I had lost) I just loved talking to her all the time went fast as a speeding train.
Jay: hey you want to come to my baby sister’s birthday?
Carol: sure, I’d love to.
Jay: great!
The next couple of days kept going as all the days had passed: fast but meaningful. I just loved every time I talked to her, it felt great having a person that really understood me and showed affection for me. I’m not going to lie about this but since that day I met her I felt a strange sensation that this would be it, I made false illusions about her and how she and I would be more than friends sometime I said in my mind. Its weird how a person you meet in a chatroom could soon turn into the person that brings me happines in presence and tears me apart in absence.
Second chapter: Fated Reuinion
When the day came, I saw her and stayed in shock, “SHE’S BEAUTIFUL” I said in my mind, but I couldn’t tell her that, no way. “Oh god she’s the perfect combination”: beauty and kindness, I considered myself lucky…
Jay: hey Carol(I had a BIG smile on my face), nice to see you.
Carol: you too Jay.(she smiled back shyly)
I acted shyly too in this “date” as if I didn’t even know her I just made her laugh with a couple of jokes and the rest was history. In that moment I was with my best friend Jack who also like me liked Carol… he made her laugh and was not shy like me. When the date was over I talked about her with Jack.
Jack: nice girl u got there.
Jay: yeah I noticed( I blushed)
The next day all she did was talk about how she had a good time with us but with Jack in specific.
Carol: hey Jay
Jay: hey Carol
Carol: Ha-ha I still remember Jack’s face when he said the stuff about the samurais.
Jay: hehe he’s like that sometimes
Carol: I noticed
Jay: you haven’t seen anything yet.
The next couple of days she only talked about how funny Jack was and I was starting to get annoyed by it. So I’m starting to become suspicious about Carol liking Jack. The next couple of days I was trying to flirt with her. She wasn’t calling me that much, I was a little bit more calm about the Jack theme. We went out a couple of times more and I really enjoyed being with her. It was as if I could reach the stars when I was with her. As if I coud finaly find someone that could make me fly. Yet it was never an adequate time to confess. Good thing valentines day was just around the corner.
Third chapter: Between love and friendship
Yes, Valentines Day is next Friday! Now what should I get Carol? I asked myself. Should I go with a giant box of chocolate and a giant teddy bear or a little box of chocolates and a medium size teddy bear? It had to be the best. Either way I think she is going to like it. I long awaited the day that I would express my feelings towards her. Each secon was a minute, each minute an hour, each hour a day, and each day an eternity. I was really scared of what she would say when I told her. Is she going to feel the same way? Or is she going to reject me? I really had a dilemma on this.
Friday is finaly here!
Jay: OH MY GOD what am I going to wear? Is my breath ok? Is my hair ok? How so I look?-I asked my friend Nick-
Nick: relax buddy its just a valentines da…
Jay: its not just a valentines date Nick, I’m going to tell her how I feel tonight.
Nick oh I thought so, coming from you at least… just wait and see its better that way
Jay: you know best, I hope. (I was now officially worried of what she would think)
Nick: relax (he said in a relaxed voice)everything will be fine.
Jay: well im going, see ya Nick!
Nick: you’re forgetting the gifts…
Jay: oopsie hehehe I’m such a screw up…
Nick: its ok, I guess… see ya
Jay: right, bye!
I rushed off to pick her up to be in time for the date. I felt my heart was gonna come right out. But I remembered the words of my friend Nick: “Just wait and see”. I couldn’t wait. When she got on the car my heart almost burst out from excitement. I had to control myself, I cant believe it I was sweating in this cold, air conditioned place. Think of how nervous I was that when she talked to me I froze. We went out to dinner and a movie but I couldn’t talk to her I didn’t know what my problem was, I knew I had to do it sooner or later. I just had butterflies in my stomach. When she talked to me she said:
Carol: hey what’s up with you tonight?
Jay: n..nothing, why do you ask?
Carol: you seem tense.* (in a sweet flirty voice)are you hiding something from me
Jay: maybe (you would probably know that I was about to run away screaming) come with me.
Then I gave her the white teddy bear and a heart-shaped box of chocolates, also I gave her this card that showed my feelings. I told her my feelings anyway but the card showed them in a written more symbolical way. She was in shock, I think she really liked it, that’s how it would seem when you saw he like that and all, or atleast I thought.
When I saw her the next day she told me this, I’m never going to forget those words:
Carol: hey Jay
Jay: hey carol how are you
Carol: I’m good, I wanted to tell you something, Jay, give time it’s time you never know what will happen, but most importantly never lose hope.
You realize just how crushed I was at that moment but that’s not the last youre gonna hear from her or else, that same night she called me:
Carol: Jay I have to tell you something
Jay: huh?
Carol: its about you and me.
Jay: huh? What is it?
Carol: I think that you are so, so sweet and are a really good guy
Jay: but you like Jack don’t you?
Carol: how did you…
Jay: I kind of noticed, it was hard not to
Carol: did I give it away that easily?
Jay: that’s not it; it’s just that these couple of days you’ve preferred talking to Jack tha to me.
Carol: Do you hate me
Jay: NO I wouldn’t hate you for anything you have done
Carol: I’m sure you hate Jack
Jay: what kind of lowlife do you think I am Carol? Jack is my best friend I wouldn’t hate him for anything.
Carol: don’t cry Jay you never know what life throws your way…(I wasn’t crying)
Jay: I’m not crying, I’m happy that what I am
Carol: why would you say something like that?
Jay: my best friend is with the girl of my dreams. What else could I hope for?
Carol: you’re a great guy Jay, you know that?
Jay: im not a great guy, I just know how to handle this type of situations perfectly! Well I got to call Jack now to see how he’s doing
Carol: you’re not going to kill him are you?
Jay: NO, what kind of friend do you think I am?
When I called Jack he answered and I pacifically threw the towel and congratulated him he just said:
Jack: I want to know something, do you hate me?
Jay: NO man I would never do such a thing.
Jack: phew that was close.
Jay: do you think I’m going to lose it over a girl?
Jack: I dunno maybe…
Jay: maybe not man. I mean, you deserve her, I would just be in the way.
Jack: you know its not like that.
Jay: I just want to know why you said that I was going to hate you?
Jack: it was just because loce make you do crazy things…
Jay: I would never do such a thing.
This conversation went on through the whole night. I was not angry at Jack, I just was happy that it was him and not another guy that doesn’t deserve her. I mean, the girl of my dreams is with my best friend, how happier can that make me? What more could I ask for? These were ofcourse… naïve feelings.
A couple of days later I started realizing the anger I had towards the situation. Even if it didn’t show in my mind I was thinking thoughts about hurting Jack. I didn’t want to think about it but I just did, It slowly took over my mind, I felt as low as dirt those days. Luckily Carol invited me to her house to a get-together; a guy and Jack was there also which sucked because I wanted to talk to carol in private. In that get-together I realized how much she liked Jack and how she looked at him. Jack was still my best friend after all so he told me that he was jealous of the guy because Carol was talking to him. I felt a little jealousy too, I mean it was just sick to see Carol play like that with Jack’s feelings (which we thought was like that) and mine. I could describe how she looked that day. She looked hot as hell. I’ve never seen such a good looking girl like her but I didn’t know her like that, I know her as a good girl that doesn’t dress like a whore, just another girl. I though she really wasn’t like that. I felt once again like dirt, only this time Jack was right there with me.
Jack: Jay, I know you don’t like to talk about the subject but do you think Carol really likes me?
Jay: I’m sure of it. Don’t worry, everything’s fine (I looked at him with a face of concern)
Jack: I know man I like her a lot but I’m jealous of that guy.
Jay: me too.
Jack: well dude. I can’t be like that.
Jay: you’re damn right you can’t!
Jack: I think you’re right.
Jay: well see you man.
Jack: yeah bye.
The next couple of days I couldn’t keep out of my mind the thought that Jck and I would have this fight, I even dreamed of it, oh my god the fight was really like a movie, with special effects and all. I always talked to my friend Zak about this kind of stuff since he is so philosophical.
Zak: hey Jay
Jay: hey
Zak: so man whats up with your life, why are you so down?
Jay: I don’t know man, its this girl. Her names Carol
Zak: girl trouble heh? Tell me about her, what is she like
Jay: she has the perfect combination; nice and cute.
Zak: oh good
Jay: but there s this problem.
Zak: what is it?
Jay: I went with her on a date on valentines and she rejected me for proposing to her to be more than friends, I really loved her man I really did.
Zak: dude, you’re putting yourself in a situation that’s real bad
Jay: you don’t understand; she left me to be with jack.
Fourth chapter:Words of Faith
I told Zak everything and he responded to me with this:
Zak: I’m going to read you you’re iching.
Jay: I’ve heard of this before.
Zak: im gonna pick a card for you: it says that: a mount covered with mist Mountain taken away by the wind all the old dead leaves will be swept aeway by the wind thus makes new mountain Its meaning in ur case When you see her dont see the love of you're life see a nice girl u used to love if you keep loving her there is the chance she will make trees blossom in ur mountain but its higly impossible for there is another one ( apine tree in winter) that will soon blossom and even if u don’t notice sooner or later the other tree will be swept away by hurricanes and such dedication... that’s a nice future yet kind of sad at first
Jay: oh
Zak: u dint understand did u?
Jay: what all this means is that i should forget her and move on?
Zak: It means that even if she falls in love with you Winter will come and even the happiest moments will fade away in time she will forget the time you shared with her and soon forget why she would love u anyways soon there will be someone who will plant a pine tree ( an ever green tree that will survive the winter) and before you know it u forgot why you used to love Carol its teenage love I guess
Jay: alright man thanks for everything, now I know why I admire you so much, you are the only one that can understand fully my feelings. Thanks Zak.
Zak: no problem man, that’s what friends are for.
Jay: I had a dream man, it was horrible I dreamt about Jack and me fighting.
Zak: you’re letting your envy lead you to hatred towards Jack man lighten up.
Jay: I should…
Zak: still, there will be a fight.
Jay: what the?
Zak: dream telling sometimes tells us what’s going to happen. I’m not saying there will be a fist fight, maybe an ideological fight.
Jay: THE ANTICRIST IS COMING!!!! OH MY GOD!!!
Zak: don’t worry dude, everything’s fine.
Jay: I don’t want to fight Jack!
Zak: you won’t. Just keep your guard up. As long as you aknowledge you’re friendship, you won’t
Jay: will do man; well see ya im going now.
Zak: you’re ok with all this about Jack and carol?
Jay: yeah why not man I mean, he’s my best friend, I couldn’t be happier!
Zak: (that’s what you think)
Jay: what you say?
Zak nothing
I was walking to my house when all of the sudden I realize how much time I lost trying to be with Carol but just when I thought of that I thought that she is my best friend and that Jack is too and they deserve each other. I cant change that for nothing in the world. I hope Jack doesn’t screw up as I did.
Days go by and I’m still here without her. Thinking of the day I would be really happy, the day that I can make someone else happy with my presence. I always think of that day I met her and how my life changed. I used to be a perverted hermit until I started realizing life from a girl’s point of view. How one person had the power over me to change how I thought and make me a better person. That’s why I’ll never forget her. No way, there’s no way of making me forget her. She had already turned into a part of me.
Fifth chapter: Here and then, there and now
I can assume everything’s fine while I’m giving Jack tips on Carol since I am her best friend. But no Jack is such an IDIOT to pull something like that off, that night while we were talking he was very impatient. He was confused by jealousy, making him very impatient and blind. He lied to her making up words she hasn’t said. The next day at school I was casually informed by Jack that she was angry at him and I just told him:
Jay: dude she looks really angry at you, what’d you do this time?
Jack: well, I was impatient because she never told me whether she liked me or not so I told her that she didn’t like me anymore and stuff like that and now she says that I lied to her and now she’s mad at me.
In this moment I felt sad for Jack but felt a little part of me shouting “GLORY” and “VICTORY”. When I heard that voice inside me calling victory I felt ashamed, ashamed of “what a great friend I am”, leaving Jack like that with Carol.
That night, my phone rang and I answered; it was Jack and he put me on Carol’s line with him, I was quiet as a mouse hearing them argue, in some point Jack came out bluffing and making Carol look bad so I had to defend her because I was sick of the lies around me, I had to face my best friend to protect the girl I loved still. The argument kept on for like an hour but then all was cleared up and Jack had to gain Carol’s trust knowing that nothing would happen between them. Jack wasn’t crushed or showed any affection for it but I know that inside his heart a dream died just as in mine a dream also died when I first received the news. I’m happy that we are still friends, all of us. To my surprise Jack told me about how he wanted to go back and redo what he did wrong, I told him the exact same words once. I just never saw this side of Jack before; he is now more serious and almost never smiles. Carol is now just like always happy-go-lucky and friendly but is now a bit less talkative with me, I wonder why? At least Carol Jack and I are still buddies. I will never forget those moments I shared with her and that song I dedicated her that said: “When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained but darlin' when I hold you don't you know I feel the same, so if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain
or I'll just end up walkin' in the cold November rain.”
Maybe one day… Shell remember me… I wish… ill never forget her, I wish she never forgets me not now not ever. As long as im in her mind, and as long as she knows I can catch her if she ever falls, im happy. I just whant to see her happy. And if those memories ever fade away… and if I ever get hurt,,, I whant it to be in her hands.
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“This story was made in the honor of my best friends Sally and Luis and to all the ones who helped me through my situation these couple of months
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